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Hello everyone!
::sigh:: Woah, it is quite late. 12:15 a.m. I'm really bored. I just opened this LJ account a few minutes ago. Heehee! Oh, one thing you will notice about me is that I smile and laugh about just about ANYTHING. ^_^ I've had quite a run-of-the-mill day today. Besides that, however, I did have a dentist appointment. The thing is, I have an open bite which means I might have to get a retainer or braces to get that corrected. o.o; I'm not really looking forward to that, but I am in a way. n_n I've never had anything corrective in my mouth (unless you count fillings ^_^) Heh. I then went to my grandma's and got to play with the little doggies and watch VH1. Not too shabby, eh? ^_~ Now I'm at home. Typing. I'm kinda bummed because one of my dear friends is bummed. I guess some things can rub off on ya. I haven't even seen him in 5 or 6 days... Sheish, love really blows. :/ Heehee! I dunno how many people out there can agree with me; I know a lot can. Hmm... I started writing down a dream that I had early this morning, but I never finished jotting it down. I hope I can remember it. I know that as soon as I leave this computer chair I'm going into an exhaustion-enduced coma. Unless I keep watching "Daria" in The N. Heehee! I love this show! It's really funny. Jane Lane is totally me. Wow, I never really realized how well I can ramble. I guess it's because I'm actually thinking about it. Heehee! ::yawn:: I'm so tired. I guess I'll come back when I have something more exciting to write. Which will probably be tomorrow! (er, later today; MUCH later... o.o ) I can tell I'll have something to say tomorrow! Heehee! Have a good night! ~_~

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I went to bed this morning at quarter past 1 (how did I get up at 8:30?!) and I couldn't help but feel upset then. The guy I like was all upset still because of a recent breakup he had. He doesn't talk much when he's sad... and that makes me sad. Ya know what's totally random? I'm watching Sesame Street and playing my kazoo! XD Heehee! God, I love my life. :/ Anywho, last night (er, this morning) got me a tad worked up. I went to read his LJ; I went to the earliest one (I like chronological order) but that was a mistake. I hadn't even finished reading the first sentance and there was her name all over it. ::sigh:: I skipped ahead to the last one (a lot safer) and it was really depressing. I wish that he could stop sulking long enough to realize that he isn't alone. That there's someone at arm's length who's perfectly willing to devote herself to him. I think mybe he's forgotten about me. I'd hate for that to happen. ::sigh:: Oh well. I guess I'll just have to wait and see what happens. ^_~ Ya know, I hope he gets a chance to read this... then again I kinda hope he doesn't. Eh, I do. ^_^ Heehee! We'll see!

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Oh My Goodness!
I'm so bored!... and hungry... and sad. Yes, still. I wish I wasn't so sad; I'm not normally like this. My "husband" (stress the quotes) hasn't shown up here all day. I really miss him. I'm doing, like, 4 things at once here. I'm talking on the phone with my friend Lanell, writing my LJ, chatting with my friend Jesse and listening to System of a Down. I love S.O.A.D! I miss going to school. I know it sounds crazy, but it's true! I miss all my friends! Ashley, Matias, Madi, Leah, Kim, Emily, Chibi, Lanell, Mocha, Lindy,... Patrick... ~_~ ... I miss everyone! ::sigh:: At least I'm getting a job this weekend, so I won't be incredibly bored. It's the first week of summer for cryin' out loud!!! What am I gonna do with my miserable life?! Well, I guess I could start on all that AP summer homework... :/ Well, open up a big can of PTH (picture that happenin'!) Well, it's gonna have to happen, but not right now; I don't wanna get off to a bad start at the begining of the year.... Jesse's trying to cheer me up. What a sweetie! Ya know, he seems like perfect boyfriend material. Too bad I can't get my thoughts away from that dear loved one that refuses to see that I care for him. :/ Heh. I wonder how that loved one views me right now... that sad, pathetic child who can't leave him alone? Or perhaps I'm just a little insignificant speck that isn't worth his thought. Oh, now listen to me! I'm turning into him! A pessimist! I'm sure that's not how he feels about me. But what he feels I still might not be satisfied with. v_v Still, it would be better than the other two I came up with. ^_^ ...Hmmm. I'm tempted to go and read some more of his LJ but I've already read what was safe for my frail little heart. What's left is all about HER. Oh well. That will soon change! ^_^ Heeheehee! (hopefully) I love my bipolarness! It's so random and funny!

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This is a song that kinda reminds me of the time my "husband" and I broke up. It doesn't really make me sad because it's so upbeat; it also has an optimistic side in the end, which I really needed!

In The Car
by the Barenaked Ladies

She fed me strawberries and freezer-burned icecream,
We said goodbye, I guess. She lifted up her dress,
And so I must confess, we made out one more
Time before I left for good, she thought I'd come back, But I wouldn't want to seem like other guys.

A book and record love, we sat and read our books
Between those longing looks. Compounded by our fear,
My tongue inside her ear, My tongue inside her,
In the basement of her mother's house where we once
Taped the first three sides of Sandanista for my car

We were looking for ourselves but found eachother in the car
It was rare to do much more than simply mess around in the car
It was mostly mutual masturbation, though we spoke of penetration we'd have to wait for someone else to try it out.

Once I had this dream that I slept with her mom.
My secret all along, unless I've got thi wrong,
Unless she hears this song, unnless she hears it
On a tape inside her car with her new husband,
And she turns to him and says "I think that's me"
In the car

We were looking for ourselves, but found eachother in the car
We groped for excuses not to be alone anymore in the car
We were waiting for our lives to start their endings in the car
We were never making love,
We were never making love,
We were never making love.

 

Ok, this isn't exactly what happened. ^_^& It just makes me think about what might have happened if things had gotten further between us. I guess it's a line in the first verse that makes me make the connection here. It is a rather fun song, though! I like it. I like the Barenaked ladies. ^_^ Go listen to it!