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Apr. 15th, 2006
Hello everyone!
Well, Opening night is in 5 days, guys! I'm really excited! However, in spite of this terriffic news, I've been feeling a little disappointed today. I was great this morning. I went to my guitar lessons like always. I didn't go to work today (after having to frantically search for some one who could take my shift for me). I got to rehersal all excited to see the one cast member that I (and the rest of the cast) have totally fallen for. Only now I have reason to believe that I'm a little too late to make him mine. Early on in the rehersal, I heard a bunch of people gathering around him and going "OH MY GOD!" OH MY GOD!" And that's all I heard in a rush of excitement once or twice during the rehersal. I glanced over at him and he was grinning and nodding his head a bit. I can't help but think that he might be with that one girl that practically got this huge attitude with me on the moor when we were rehearsing in the Black Box a few weeks ago; about this totally trivial and rediculous issue, she lost her head over it and started venting to other kids about how I'M a bitch. How fucked up is that? It was retarded.
Anyway, Yeah. She might be the one. It makes me angry. My best friend LaNell said that this guy would have been a perfect match for me, but no. He might be going with her. She's mean. At least to me she is. And he said so himself that she was the Queen of Gossip. I'm far nicer than she is! Rrrgh! Dickon deserves much better!
So later at rehersal, I started feeling a little better. Earlier my mom let me drive up to Meyer Hall before rehersal started. When it ended, dad came to pick me up. And he wouldn't let me drive home. Mom's let me drive home from school for the past 3 days! Dad wouldn't let me. I think he's scared. Of what, I'm not sure. Could it be that he doesn't want me to get hurt? He doesn't want to let me go and drive on my own? Or could it be that he underestimates me so much as to assume that I'd crash his car? I personally believe it's the latter.
So, we go to Publix on the way home. Dad buys some food and crap. I go to fill out some more Time Away From Work forms. The show'll be running over the weekend (and next weekend). So I go to buy some crap and decide to go into Aaron's line. He was actually on a register tonight. I go and get to his line, and right before it's my turn, he leaves! Heather takes his place and he goes off to the back office. That left me feeling really crappy again. I almost felt as if all the guys in my life were saying "Oh no! It's her! I must quickly occupy myself before she gets here!" ::sigh:: Some day I'll get what I want! But right now it seems like I just can't. Oh well.
To top it all off, Dad wouldn't let me even drive home from Publix! Accross the friggin' street from my house! "Oh, It's a holiday weekend. There are crazy people on the streets" is his lame-ass excuse. I need to get my stinkin' licence before I kill myself! Why won't anyone take me?! I NEED MY LICENCE NOW!! I Think I should try to do something to release all of this stress. Which is basically what I'm doing right now. Heehee! The first thing I would like to do is possibly ask Dickon if this whole "girlfriend" thing is true. I hope it isn't, because I can't see such a nice guy going out with some one who practically bit my head off over something miniscule. I don't understand it! It doesn't make sense!
Well, I'm off. I'll be back if I've anything to report.
Ciao!
Well, Opening night is in 5 days, guys! I'm really excited! However, in spite of this terriffic news, I've been feeling a little disappointed today. I was great this morning. I went to my guitar lessons like always. I didn't go to work today (after having to frantically search for some one who could take my shift for me). I got to rehersal all excited to see the one cast member that I (and the rest of the cast) have totally fallen for. Only now I have reason to believe that I'm a little too late to make him mine. Early on in the rehersal, I heard a bunch of people gathering around him and going "OH MY GOD!" OH MY GOD!" And that's all I heard in a rush of excitement once or twice during the rehersal. I glanced over at him and he was grinning and nodding his head a bit. I can't help but think that he might be with that one girl that practically got this huge attitude with me on the moor when we were rehearsing in the Black Box a few weeks ago; about this totally trivial and rediculous issue, she lost her head over it and started venting to other kids about how I'M a bitch. How fucked up is that? It was retarded.
Anyway, Yeah. She might be the one. It makes me angry. My best friend LaNell said that this guy would have been a perfect match for me, but no. He might be going with her. She's mean. At least to me she is. And he said so himself that she was the Queen of Gossip. I'm far nicer than she is! Rrrgh! Dickon deserves much better!
So later at rehersal, I started feeling a little better. Earlier my mom let me drive up to Meyer Hall before rehersal started. When it ended, dad came to pick me up. And he wouldn't let me drive home. Mom's let me drive home from school for the past 3 days! Dad wouldn't let me. I think he's scared. Of what, I'm not sure. Could it be that he doesn't want me to get hurt? He doesn't want to let me go and drive on my own? Or could it be that he underestimates me so much as to assume that I'd crash his car? I personally believe it's the latter.
So, we go to Publix on the way home. Dad buys some food and crap. I go to fill out some more Time Away From Work forms. The show'll be running over the weekend (and next weekend). So I go to buy some crap and decide to go into Aaron's line. He was actually on a register tonight. I go and get to his line, and right before it's my turn, he leaves! Heather takes his place and he goes off to the back office. That left me feeling really crappy again. I almost felt as if all the guys in my life were saying "Oh no! It's her! I must quickly occupy myself before she gets here!" ::sigh:: Some day I'll get what I want! But right now it seems like I just can't. Oh well.
To top it all off, Dad wouldn't let me even drive home from Publix! Accross the friggin' street from my house! "Oh, It's a holiday weekend. There are crazy people on the streets" is his lame-ass excuse. I need to get my stinkin' licence before I kill myself! Why won't anyone take me?! I NEED MY LICENCE NOW!! I Think I should try to do something to release all of this stress. Which is basically what I'm doing right now. Heehee! The first thing I would like to do is possibly ask Dickon if this whole "girlfriend" thing is true. I hope it isn't, because I can't see such a nice guy going out with some one who practically bit my head off over something miniscule. I don't understand it! It doesn't make sense!
Well, I'm off. I'll be back if I've anything to report.
Ciao!
