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Dickon splurge!
May. 3rd, 2006 09:20 pmOMG!
Josh Bubis is not going to Grad Nite! Damn it! Things aren't looking good for me. There's only about 11 days or so left of school. I'm never gonna get any time with him; and it does take me a lot of time to work up the nerve to ask someone out. My time is quickly running short. And on top of that, I don't think I can get him away from all his theatre friends long enough. He'll probably end up with one of them. I'll be left out in the cold all because I was too chicken to make a move.
I had a dream last night that he asked me out. It was a really good dream. We were all lovey-dovey and stuff. It was great. ^_^ Most likely one of those wishful thinking dreams. You don't get those prophetic dreams very often. Anyway, as good as the dream was, something bad happened in it. I think it symbolized that the dream was a load of crap and was never gonna happen in a million years.
Blast it all!
Ya know, he's online right now. I think I'll talk to him some more.... if he ever responds to me. He's probably too busy talkin' to all of his theatre friends. Ya know, I left him a comment on Myspace and he deleted it. Maybe he's embarassed to have a vocal major listed as one of his friends. He's in my top 8... partially because he was, like, the second or third person I added. Oh well. I'm on his last page of friends out of 3. That's understandable. I actually have no qualms about that. I just think it sucks. I want to be one of the friends that's cool enough to be in his top 8! ^_^ He's just so adoreable! ::sigh:: I really need to at least try to have a summer fling with him or something. Perhaps we'll become close enough over the course of three months to want to maintain the relationship. (I know that's highly unrealistic, but hey! A girl can dream, can't she?)
Ugh!! I want him!!!! But if I don't do anything at all, then it's safe to assume that I have not a snowball's chance in Hell. Anyone wanna hook me up with him? ^_^ Pretty please? ~_~ I'd love you forever! o.o Heehee! I guess some of that is up to me. But what can I do?! You have to spend a certain amount of time with someone before you can just ask them to... even just hang out. I hate that. The last time I was quite close to him was last Friday when we were warming up before the show. I stood next to him in the circle. And I've literally never even SEEN him before we started working on The Secret Garden! And here he's in everyone else's classes and none of my own. I don't understand how a person could just NOT BE SEEN for three and a half years of high school!! It escapes me. I've known just about every face of the senior class since our freshman year, except his. That's kinda freaky, in a way. Hmm. Oh well. I've got to figure out a way to get closer to him! But how? Hmm. When I IM him, he hardly responds. He was the most responsive the first time I chatted online with him. That was fun. Phooey.
I miss him smiling at me... u.u
Well, there's my Dickon rant for this evening. I've been having Dickon withdrawl since the end of the play. Now that I can't see him every day anymore, I've been quite sad. Yeah. So I'm done. Heehee! OK. I'll post here again sometime soon. Ciao!
Josh Bubis is not going to Grad Nite! Damn it! Things aren't looking good for me. There's only about 11 days or so left of school. I'm never gonna get any time with him; and it does take me a lot of time to work up the nerve to ask someone out. My time is quickly running short. And on top of that, I don't think I can get him away from all his theatre friends long enough. He'll probably end up with one of them. I'll be left out in the cold all because I was too chicken to make a move.
I had a dream last night that he asked me out. It was a really good dream. We were all lovey-dovey and stuff. It was great. ^_^ Most likely one of those wishful thinking dreams. You don't get those prophetic dreams very often. Anyway, as good as the dream was, something bad happened in it. I think it symbolized that the dream was a load of crap and was never gonna happen in a million years.
Blast it all!
Ya know, he's online right now. I think I'll talk to him some more.... if he ever responds to me. He's probably too busy talkin' to all of his theatre friends. Ya know, I left him a comment on Myspace and he deleted it. Maybe he's embarassed to have a vocal major listed as one of his friends. He's in my top 8... partially because he was, like, the second or third person I added. Oh well. I'm on his last page of friends out of 3. That's understandable. I actually have no qualms about that. I just think it sucks. I want to be one of the friends that's cool enough to be in his top 8! ^_^ He's just so adoreable! ::sigh:: I really need to at least try to have a summer fling with him or something. Perhaps we'll become close enough over the course of three months to want to maintain the relationship. (I know that's highly unrealistic, but hey! A girl can dream, can't she?)
Ugh!! I want him!!!! But if I don't do anything at all, then it's safe to assume that I have not a snowball's chance in Hell. Anyone wanna hook me up with him? ^_^ Pretty please? ~_~ I'd love you forever! o.o Heehee! I guess some of that is up to me. But what can I do?! You have to spend a certain amount of time with someone before you can just ask them to... even just hang out. I hate that. The last time I was quite close to him was last Friday when we were warming up before the show. I stood next to him in the circle. And I've literally never even SEEN him before we started working on The Secret Garden! And here he's in everyone else's classes and none of my own. I don't understand how a person could just NOT BE SEEN for three and a half years of high school!! It escapes me. I've known just about every face of the senior class since our freshman year, except his. That's kinda freaky, in a way. Hmm. Oh well. I've got to figure out a way to get closer to him! But how? Hmm. When I IM him, he hardly responds. He was the most responsive the first time I chatted online with him. That was fun. Phooey.
I miss him smiling at me... u.u
Well, there's my Dickon rant for this evening. I've been having Dickon withdrawl since the end of the play. Now that I can't see him every day anymore, I've been quite sad. Yeah. So I'm done. Heehee! OK. I'll post here again sometime soon. Ciao!
